Death by Crocodile

200350761-001Suicide is always a tragedy. Many families have been touched by its pain.

The moral implications of this are vast, of course, and not the topic of this column. Today I am more intrigued by the modes that people select as they act on their suicidal impulses (or long-deliberated decisions).

As a pastor and military chaplain, I have worked with families in the aftermath of suicide. As a volunteer law enforcement chaplain, I have responded to the actual event.

Life is precious. It should never be squandered. Contrary to the notions of reincarnationists, “it is appointed for man to die once, and after that comes judgment” (Hebrews 9:27). That judgment need not be feared, for those sheltered in the mercy of God. Still, I doubt the Lord desires to see us ushered into his presence for that judgment by our own hand.

Even the darkest of lives can be rescued and recreated with new hope. That’s the testimony of many people, like Joni Eareckson Tada, who became a quadriplegic at only seventeen.

There are diverse ways people choose to end their days on earth.

Some European countries have made the passing a gentle, numbing for the most part, painless transition. In their euthanasia clinics, powerful drugs can be used to simply suppress one’s breathing until they “fall asleep” permanently.

Others make drug concoctions of their own, and some die in agony because of miscalculation, or are “rescued” to live debilitated by their failed attempt.

Some, for twisted macho reasons perhaps, decide to go out with a literal bang. Here too the attempt can fail and leave the individual in a horrific condition. And, even when it is “successful,” it leaves a sickening aftermath.

Perhaps the worst of all are those who desire to leave a “mark” on this “cruel world” as they depart. They may lash out at people they know—or even strangers—seeking to leave a lasting scar as a memory. Most of these people are likely insane. Not so the fanatic “suicide bombers.” Those disciples of evil comprehend what they are doing. The magnitude of their vile acts do not escape them.

Not the Why, but the How

As I said above, I’m not thinking today about the reasons a person would end their life. I am wondering about the means they choose to do so.

I was shocked by the recent suicide by a sixty-five year old Thai woman who calmly removed her shoes and then leapt into a ten-foot-deep pond which is home to more than a thousand crocodiles. A dozen were on her immediately.

I cannot stand to watch nature shows that portray crocodiles viciously dragging antelopes or zebras to their grim deaths. Just thinking of this woman’s final moments leaves me in emotional disbelief.

C.S. Lewis hinted at humanity’s archetypal antipathy to crocodiles. In a 1949 letter he wrote:

I don’t think the idea that evil is an illusion helps. Because surely it is a (real) evil that the illusion of evil should exist. When I am pursued in a nightmare by a crocodile the pursuit and the crocodile are illusions: but it is a real nightmare, and that seems a real evil.

Just as shocking as this poor woman’s death itself, is the fact that a decade ago another woman committed suicide at the Samutprakarn Crocodile Farm and Zoo in the same way.

The only reason I can conceive of for a person choosing such a terrible manner of death, is that they believed they deserved to suffer. Aside from that, only insanity can provide an answer.

For those who believe their guilt for real or imagined sins demands such a path, I have a life-saving alternative. There is One who can forgive those crimes and failings, and offer us a new beginning.

In the same passage from Hebrews cited above, we read the following good news.

[Jesus] has appeared once for all at the end of the ages to put away sin by the sacrifice of himself. And just as it is appointed for man to die once, and after that comes judgment, so Christ, having been offered once to bear the sins of many, will appear a second time, not to deal with sin but to save those who are eagerly waiting for him.

Share this hope with your friends and family—especially with those you know who may be contemplating the untimely end of their lives.


I have written on the subject of suicide in the past. If you are interested in considering the subject from a different perspective, please read “The Anguish of Suicide.”

8 thoughts on “Death by Crocodile

  1. I have always thought crocodiles were truly horrible creatures–practically prehistoric, along with sharks. There is something terrible about the rending teeth pulling the victim down to drown that chills me to the bone. What a truly horrific way to die!

    In writing down family history stories for my grandchildren, I’ve come to realize that many of them are NOT for children! One of these is the story of my great-great-grandmother, Katie. Her son had died a few years previously in a tuberculosis asylum three years after abandoning his five children, including my 10-day old grandmother, when their mother died ten days after giving birth to my grandmother. Grandmother Katie and her husband were left to raise the five children. One of her own twin daughters died of whooping cough, and when they returned from the cemetery they found her sister dead of the same illness. Apparently this was too much for poor Katie, and she drank lye. She lingered for several weeks before she died, a truly horrible death from what I have read. Like the crocodiles, this form of committing suicide leaves my mind boggled, wondering about the depth of desperation that would cause someone to ignore the knowledge of such incredible pain and suffering in choosing such a way to escape their pain and suffering.

    1. You’re right. The inconsolable despair of people can drive them to inconceivable actions. I’m stunned by the number of people who hang themselves. (My great-grandfather did so, at an advanced age, after going blind.) If I were going to end my own life I can’t imagine becoming so desperate to do so that I did not take into consideration the physical suffering that would be involved.

    1. You must forgive me, but the “little boy” in me had an immature reaction to your post. The first thing that came to my mind was “that’s not what the crocodiles said.”

      (Forgive me, Lord.)

  2. They leave, but the ones they leave behind are cruelly battered with lives destroyed – especially children who wonder why – then later consider it their “heritage” and follow in like.
    While everyone experiences dark time, the paragraph “LIfe should never be squandered” is important. Life is not to be “wished away” – things change. Something is ahead that needs to be done – that only you can do – and you were put here to do it.
    Somehow the croc in Peter Pan with the clock was always troubling and scary to me as a child. Life is short, fragile, and there’s a clock running – all that inside a ferocious beast smiling. Still shiver.

    1. I hadn’t thought about that crocodile… I’m sure many other children have had the same reaction when they read the story (or saw some version of it).

      Yes, leaving family behind after the taking of one’s own life leaves wounds that can never fully heal.

    1. What a tragic story! The full sort of there adult children. Imagine that. If the kids were truly “loving,” then their parents wouldn’t be terrified by the possibility of being “alone.” Oh, how our world is changing…

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